never good enough

A year ago, I fell for a boy who I shouldn’t have. I was thirteen and I didn’t believe in love. We dated for four months straight, and during that time he dated another girl and cheated on me with multiple people. I forgave him because I liked him so much. We got back together multiple times, and ended up dating a total (on & off) of ten months. He hurt me so many times then, but I gave him a chance repeatedly because I loved him. Now, two months after our final break up, he’s dating the girl that I always had to compete with while we were dating. Truth is, I never thought I was good enough and it kills me inside to know I’ve lost him..especially to her. Now he treats her better than ever, and he loves her.