"christmas"

i just spent my christmas inside our house..just watching televisison and texting my friends to greet them a merry christmas...this christmas year was so sad for me..because of a one person,,none other than nikita...im stupid...i want to hate her..but how?!...she's so insensitive...i just want to hear an assurance of feelings from her..if she wants to reject me..so just do it...but she's never doing any moves...so desperate at this time...i want lovelife...i've been single in 2 years..i want to feel again to love and to be loved...i envied my friends and cousins.because they are all spending their christmas on a date with their loved ones..but me..just in the house...boredome is always in me...haist!!!...i just loved her...i wish she can love me back..how i wish...